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Day 32: Cultivating awareness

Updated: Dec 19, 2021


I had an awesome day today!  It started with a 9am session with my shamans.  Correction, it started with Starbucks and then off to my shamanic session.  I used to hit Starbucks every morning on my way to work and have decided I probably don’t need to do that every morning in retirement so it’s actually like a treat now.  Bonus!

The purpose of this session was to cut cords that no longer served me…that kept me rooted in the past or hoping for something that didn’t happen.  

I’d gone in with this intention before and once there, couldn’t do it.  But this time felt different.  Yesterday I was excited at the thought of clear away the old energy.  When I work up this morning….I wasn’t nervous…or sad…or fearful.  I was ready.  

So I grabbed some of the things The Taste had given me over the years and headed out the door.  I took the jewelry with me because I love wearing the pieces.  They are beautiful and were given with love.  I want to be able to continue wearing them without re-establishing old cords.  I want to wear them and remember happy times of friendship and laughter.

I sat down in my usual chair and we started chatting.  I shared my intention for the session and pulled out the jewelry.  Piece by piece, they held it up and asked me to look at it to see if any emotions popped up.  I was good with all the pieces except for the ring we got one spring weekend in a quaint little ski town.  

Everything about that weekend was perfect and the ring represented the potential of what I…maybe both of us….thought could happen with the relationship.  But it didn’t and it was time to let all that go.  So we breathed through it and released the energy.

Next I closed my eyes and released any energy of his that I may have still been carrying.  From my feet to the top of my head and every stop in between, I said “My energy stays.  His energy goes.”  From there I imagined holding a giant knife about 6 inches or so from my physical body (this was easy to imagine because I’ve been watching a lot of Dexter lately).  I wielded the knife up and down each leg…front and back…around both arms…up the front of my body and down my back…around my neck and head.  Making sure that I severed every energetic cord that may still be lingering.  Then she told me to visualize a fire in front of me…to know that the fire wouldn’t burn me when I touched it…and to walk through it to seal any wounds that may have resulted from the cutting.

Once through the fire, she told me to do a little dance.  I did more than dance, I threw my hands down and said “YES!  It’s done.”…. and I smiled from ear to ear.

We did some other exercises before heading over to the table for some chakra cleansing.  As I laid on the table, I thought why not just make sure that every cord with any ex is cut, right?!?  I don’t need — or want — to carry any of that old energy with me anymore.  So I started the exercise again and as I did, I saw the faces of the ones that still had some connection to me.  Cut…cut….cut…cut…cut…cut….unshackled from the past.  So amazing!

After the session, I bought a truck load (literally) of beautiful purple flowers and ivy to plant in my back yard.  Met a friend for brunch and we headed to my house to commence planting.  My yard…much like my soul…was transferred into something splendid…something alive…something worthy…teeming with beauty.

I’m off to my first Yin yoga workshop now.  According to Wikipedia,

“Yin Yoga poses apply moderate stress to the connective tissues—the tendons, fascia, and ligaments—with the aim of increasing circulation in the joints and improving flexibility. Yin Yoga poses are also designed to improve the flow of qi, the subtle energy said in Chinese medicine to run through the meridian pathways of the body. Improved flow of qi is hypothesized to improve organ health, immunity, and emotional well-being.[6][7] A more meditative approach to yoga, Yin aims at cultivating awareness of one’s inner silence, eventually bringing to light a universal, interconnecting quality.”

Today has been all about cultivating awareness…in myself, with friends, and in nature.  Today was a good — no, great — day.


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